Try again

I had a convo with my ex who is finally ready to settle down and be in a relationship(or so he says) I don't know whether to believe him b/c it just may be a way to reel me back in...I figured time will tell if he's sincere but I also had to reflect on our past b4 I even consider going there with him again...and this is what inspired my poem called "Try Again"


We both cried when I had to end whatever it was we had
You cried b/c you didn't want me to leave I cried b/c I knew I had to
I had to leave you in order to grow and become stronger mentally
Your love had me hypnotized and bound to the point where my soul was suffocating


You never hit me but every time we got into it I felt like I had been sucker punched
You always told me you loved me but your actions never showed it
I never asked you for anything but you wanted me to give you the world
No matter how hard I tried I came up short of your expectations


I was too dependent on others but yet I let you roam free
I was too weak but for a long time I had the strength to put up with your infidelities
I was too insecure about the way I looked but I made you feel like a superstar
What I was I have never been ever since I lost you and found myself


I let Keyshia and Brandy express my misery until I cried myself to sleep
I wanted to write love songs but at times the pain was too much to bear
I would start but could not finish when the tears would blur my vision 
the ink would run off the paper and destroy everything that came from deep inside


Finally I reached my breaking point and decided that I was done
I could no longer be a mental punching bag that you take your daily frustrations out on
You took me for granted but I know that karma is a bitch
And she came back around and hurt you more than I ever could


You've reached a point in your life where you are finally able to handle all I have to offer
but unlike before I refuse to give my heart away so easily
The tables have turned and now I run the show
You can try again but know that with or without you I will be alright

Love Songs

I was listening to my itouch and I'm hearing men like Brian McKnight and Usher sing love songs and I'm thinking to myself why is it that the only men that are in touch with their  emotional side are R&B singers and they are mainly singing love songs for profit esp since they can be the biggest whores out there but we still fall in love with the mushy stuff they sing about! That's what inspired this poem called Love Songs lemme know what u think!


Dreamlover why can't you sing me to sleep at night?
Hold me tight and call me your baby?
Even if I was taken you wouldn't give up
Tyrese didn't for his "Sweet Lady"


Tell me that I'm your cherie amor your one and only
Even Stevie saw true love when it was laid before his eyes
I am tired of the heartbreak and betrayal
I am sick of the deception and lies


Trey Songz didn't wanna leave his girl 
but the time came that he had to go
At least he told her he would be back
When you leave dreamlover I never know


You disappeared and left me wondering
 Now our love is hanging on a ledge
What happened to the promise you made you didn't say goodbye
The pain in my heart hurts more than a knife with a Jagged Edge


This is time for my last cry I wanna leave it all behind me
I wonder if Brian McKnight ever felt pain like this
Usher talked about letting it Burn even if its bruises
but in your absence all I can do is reminisce


Everyone tells me that my soulmate is out there somewhere
but I think that they have it all wrong
My dreamlover is out there but sadly
he only exists in love songs