Pretty Brown Eyes

They took my breath away the moment I saw them...saw him
I didn't know exactly what to say but as soon as he smiled at me they twinkled
and as sappy as this may sound my heart skipped a beat
I don't believe in love at first sight because you can't love who you don't know
but there was this instant attraction
his aura was magnetic pulling me in with each second
I didn't want to fall in but I could see myself drowning in those brown pools
never to return to the mainland of my mundane existance
Every minute around him made me sink in deeper
Quicksand couldn't have pulled me in fast enough
I have no words so I hope he can interpret my body language
and decipher the signals that I am giving him
I want him to come closer to me physically so we can grow closer mentally
and most importantly I want to find out what lies behind the windows to his soul
but until he makes that first move I will be content in this moment our moment
dedicated to the gentleman who lured me in with those pretty brown eyes

Change is good!

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. Thinking about where I am in my life now and where I want to be. In order to accomplish all of my goals I needed a push. I always thought that someone or something would push me to get to where I wanted to go. There would be some sort of sign telling me just what I needed to do in order to achieve my goals. In life we meet people that change our lives and I figured that I would meet that person that would be like a fairy godmother/godfather to me and help me live out my dreams. After a lot of thinking I realized that if that drive and motivation is not inside of me first, then it won't matter who I meet b/c they will encounter someone who is stagnant. I never want to be stagnant, ever! I want to keep moving forward and make sure that every person I meet is the icing on this wonderful cake being made that is my life instead of them becoming the cake itself. Putting too much into someone or something and losing yourself in the process is never good for the mind,body and especially soul. If I want to succeed in life the main person I need to focus on is me. With that being said I will be going back to college in the spring(yes I said that I would start this fall but I have some loan issues that need to be worked out!) and I am working on getting my license(at 23 years old I still don't have it yet smh!) and most importantly I am working on letting go and bringing positivity in my life. I tend to let my insecurities get the best of me instead of focusing on my positive attributes. I am letting it be known that I will make my mark on the world so you have read it here first!!! This song from the Dreamgirls' soundtrack represents what I am feeling at this point in my life. It's called I am changing

Look at me, Look at me
I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
I'm trying to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need you
I need a hand
I am changing
Seeing everything so clear
I am changing
I'm gonna start right now, right here
I'm hoping to work it out
And I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand

All of my life I've been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone
How many good friends have I already lost?
How many dark nights have I known?

Walking down that wrong road
There was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness
Could make a person blind
But now I can see

I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
But I need a friend
To help me start all over again
That would be just fine
I know it's gonna work out this time
'Cause this time I am
This time I am
I am changing
I'll get my life together now
I am changing
Yes I know how
I'm gonna start again
I'm gonna leave my past behind
I'll change my life
I'll make a vow and nothings gonna stop me now

I'll make a vow and nothings gonna stop me now....and with that said I'm out!