Behind his smile

I love this poem because I wrote it trying to put myself in someone else's shoes...its very hard writing about things that you are not sure about but if you can place yourself there mentally and write what you see but most importantly what vibes you feel from that person or situation it expands your creativity.....this poem is not about who you a lot of you may be thinking about...it was written in September of 2006 lol but it can apply to so many people who live in the spotlight! with that being said here it is!

when the curtain comes down
and the lights fade out
he steps out of the spotlight and looks in the mirror

and knows that few have made it this far

tears stinging his eyes because he thinks about her
he acts nonchalant for the cameras but wonders if

he hadn't made that mistake would they still be together
or was this only meant for a season and not a lifetime

the fans only know what they see
but nothing is ever what it seems
their fantasies blurred by a image he has created

the man they see at times is a facade

Privacy is very limited

its like he is in a fishbowl for all to watch

even when the show is over people still want to take a peek

they want to scrutinize, criticize and judge

he is deeper than just telling his secrets

he is more than just a ladies man

he loves like there is no tomorrow

he feels the pain just the same

he has leaches, snakes, and pironas on his back

he doesn't know where to turn or who to trust

he wears dark shades not just to look good but because

he can't trust just anyone looking in the windows to his soul

he's soft spoken but don't mistake it for weakness

he's confident but don't mistake it for arrogance

he knows what he wants and he goes after it

blood sweat and tears doesn't begin to describe his will to win

He is always looking for ways to outdo himself

he manages to go to that next level everytime

the critics are left speechless and his fans amazed

but they don't see the load on his back while climbing to the top

Some people manage to put him on this pedestal

and when he doesn't meet their expectations their world is shattered

they forget that he is a human being

and those trials and tribulations hurt him far worse

He loves what he does but no one but him knows

just how much he has had to sacrifice to be at this point

He makes it look so effortless so easy

but much more lies behind his smile